The Miracle Who Lives Among Us

Magazine Naised, March 8, 2011, by Inga Raitar

It is difficult to write about Ingvar Villido (49) comprehensively. A Yogi. Spiritual Teacher. The leader of NGO Lilleoru. An incarnated enlightened being. Perhaps it’s not even necessary to describe in words this sublime being born in a human body. Ingvar himself says simply: "Use me since I'm already here". 

“I don’t think that I’m special, it’s what others say,” says Ingvar with his sincere smile in a bearded face. If you would meet him in his color-spotted overalls, cigarette in his mouth on the construction of the eco-village next to the Lilleoru learning center, you would never think of considering him as someone special, least of all a Saint. The eyes give it away. Kind, deep, eyes which are never evil and see you to your depths. He is special because he doesn’t have something which directs us all – an ego. He has been able to overcome the humane disturbances inside himself. Supposedly there are only 22 people with that kind of level of evolution in the whole world. For some reason, one of them bothered to come to Estonia – a small area with merely 1,4 million people. 

God will teach you now

According to Ingvar, he was an ordinary quiet boy in his childhood. His development to his current state was rather like an opening of a blossom – petal by petal. Around the age of 15, from a Russian magazine called Ogonjok, he found a description of a yoga breathing technique which he tried out. Then he “accidentally” found himself in karate lessons. Necessary knowledge or people appeared in his life seemingly coincidentally just when he was ready for them. “When I was in the military I met my first teacher, a year younger boy from Kaliningrad, “he says. “He taught me Chinese martial arts and acupuncture.” 

When Ingvar came back from the military he searched for a person who could teach him further. There was nobody in Estonia who could answer his questions. “When an acquaintance from Viljandi (a small town in South-Estonia – editors note) called me and said that there will be a course about some kind of Kundalini and chakras, I knew instantly that I needed it, “he recalls. Consequently, he ended up participating in Russian teacher Antonov’s  Raja-Buddhi yoga course which was first held in Viljandi. The next levels were already held in Russia. “When a course ended, Antonov told him: “I am not capable of teaching you anymore, God will teach you from now.” Then I started exploring different literature by myself, not by simply taking it all in but in essence. There are plenty of texts which forward the Real Things, even in Estonian but naturally also in Russian.” 

When I came back with those attainments, I encountered the people from Holger Oidjärv’s (one of the first famous yoga teachers in Estonia - editors note) yoga training. “I was a complete stranger in that group and when I said something while they were talking, they all became somehow silent,” recalls Ingvar. Probably he impressed the top yoga people back then and Holger Oidjärv suggested that Ingvar should start teaching yoga himself. 

“The situations and the choices I had to make between them have been guiding my life. There has always been someone to show me a door and I have entered it, “ says Ingvar. While listening to him talking, it’s difficult to get accustomed to the way he talks. Not bragging, not highlighting himself nor considering it important that you think of him as someone.  

Five lives in the Himalayas

Many of Ingvar’s students have said that they stayed as his students because, unlike other yoga trainers, for some reason, Ingvar just knew what was going on inside the students. “At some point, I discovered that I have this quality and I can use it,” he explains about his “seeing inside others” ability as naturally as he would talk about yesterday’s weather. “In my opinion, it’s impossible to teach someone if you don’t know what is really going on with them.” 

Understanding that everything related to him sounds unbelievable and illogical to common sense, he tells a background story. In January 2014, Ingvar participated in India on an international conference of yogis and Sufis as the only person from Europe. After the week-long conference, he had two weeks between another event in India that he was participating. Therefore Ingvar decided to accept an invitation from a Swami (a person educated in ancient Vedic scripts – editors note) whom he met at the conference to visit the Himalayas. “When we were driving back, the older Swami asked me: “Have you been in the Himalayas before?” I had not felt the need to think about it earlier but when I looked at it I realized that I had been there 5-6 lives as a yogi. I had not considered it important who I had been before. Svami said: “It might not be important for you, but it is for others.” 

Yoga and activities of a yogi usually associate to us mainly with stretching and bending, in better cases also with sitting in a cave meditating with crossed legs. Ingvar starts laughing mellowly and kindly when he hears this description. “All the activities a yogi does are only tools to reach there. The closer yogi becomes to God, the more he gains the attributes of God. The closer he reaches, the more he will experience Him and becomes part of Him. For example, from there we can influence things and people. God is certainly all-knowing. When a person becomes Knowing in the same hue or meaning, they will also simply know things – let it be with other people or situations in time. Or they can use energies to influence another being in a necessary way – Gods energy is everywhere. Influencing other beings is also a quality of God. Yogis have this natural ability, but one has to be very careful with it. When the ego interferes, there is a danger of unwanted consequences for both the influencer as well as the person affected. A yogi can crucially trip on this rock. However, when kept in mind, one can use the ability to influence to help others. The yogic way to influence is to guide someone towards their own true Self.  The logic is simple – the closer you get to God, the more you have His qualities.” Ingvar stops the conversation at this point with a calm smile - understanding too well that the spreading of Gods qualities sounds rather as something misunderstandable and unacceptable in our reality-inclined world. 

Abandoned the guidance of the mind

When talking about how he started to teach, he has a strange explanation at first glance: “I gave up the guidance of the mind. I allowed the emergence of spontaneity, the intellect. Explaining things with the help of mind was so rough and lifeless that at one point I just cast it aside. I let the intellect speak directly. Truthfully, it was a very short period of time when I used the mentality, the memory-based mind for teaching, quite at the beginning of raja-buddhi yoga. When you use the intellect, you’re teaching others exactly within that, what they need at that precise moment, instead of giving general stiffened knowledge. When you are aware, you can give a student exactly the knowledge that they can use at that moment and instantly change their situation. 

Many people feel uneasy about this ability – “how can I go to his courses, he will instantly see through me.” Ingvar laughs at that: “It’s not my business to secretly listen to their thoughts. I am not interested what they feel towards me or someone else. My business is to point to their inner obstacles so that they can remove those themselves.” Ingvar gives a simple example: “When you’re teaching a child, you see what is going inside that child because you’re smarter in life experience. You observe that child and understand their thoughts and feelings. It’s nothing unnatural.”  

Journey to Lilleoru

To Lilleoru which is led by Ingvar, he arrived when looking for a place to build a house for his family. You heard right – Ingvar is a family man, he has three children, a son and two daughters. “A yogi doesn’t necessarily have to live alone, “ says Ingvar, a husband and a father in normal life. “When a person has a real inner peace, they don’t have to contemplate in secluded caves. They can live a common life as a most common person in the crowd. Thanks to being “here and now”, in the present moment, they can orientate and adapt very well to what’s happening. When I change my surroundings, I adapt to what is. At home I’m a father when teaching a course, I’m a teacher and when building a house I use other abilities and capabilities. I have all the attributes – just as I use a hammer to pound the nail into the wall and use a match to light a candle – every situation determines the choices. The more there are situations and adaptations, the more flexible one is. Being flexible is what they call thriving in life.” 

The marshy and empty land near Tallinn which was already originally called Lilleoru, Ingvar got for himself at first. At the same time, he was giving yoga training in the city. “At some point, I ended raja-buddhi yoga because the techniques we were doing had a great impact on people, they became humane and lovable. Putting that kind of person into the society, they become under great pressure. My students started to have contradictions, they felt that the world with its aggressiveness is oppressing them. I didn’t have a solution how to help them. I told them that the love that I have taught them, is not real, it’s dependant on the external. I said that I can’t help them anymore in those things, I feel that I have to educate myself. I finished the training promptly.” 

He also said that those who wish to continue their pursuits will find him in Lilleoru. Around ten people came who helped Ingvar in reshaping the bushy plot. The first shelters were built with the voluntary help of his students. On the weekend people gathered to listen and practice Ingvar’s teaching. The first house was built, each time the place attracted more and more people. “During the process, Lilleoru grew very big,” says Ingvar. “I saw that because all of it has been created by the people and even though there was a lot of my own material which I had planned for my own house, I knew that it wasn’t ethical anymore to consider the place mine. I gave Lilleoru to NGO Lilleoru.” 

There aren’t many people who remain aware. Some of them attain the state only for a moment after a long meditation. For Ingvar, being aware is the only state to be. This is what distinguishes him from other spiritual people - healers, clairvoyants, and teachers. “Awareness is a tool,“ he tries to explain. “My teaching is continuously evolving based on people’s problems that they nor I have answers for. Seeing students’ troubles, I try to find answers to their life-based questions. This is how my teachings develop. When I reached a phase where I didn’t know how to help people, I went to the retreats of many Buddhist schools, investigated Castaneda and other esoteric teachings. One day Babaji’s Kriya Yoga reached me. This knowledge put all the knowledge I already had into one unity. I already had a picture, but Kriya Yoga’s system of 5 bodies made it a whole system. 

Entering the great void

On the surface it seems that there is no difference between Ingvar’s wisdom and the knowledge of other channelers – they both get information from a higher, inaccessible source for common people which they intermediate to others. “I’m a practitioner who studies the natural laws of how the world works, “Ingvar tries to explain. “For example, I investigated how an insight as an instance occurs, what is behind it. Examining it, I found out that it’s an endless flow of knowledge. Finding yourself inside it you know instantly everything. There was so much knowledge that I bought an expensive voice recorder to be able to record everything I suddenly knew. It was like a very powerful river of information had started flowing through me. The whole absolute knowledge was suddenly accessible. It’s like space where all the knowledge is there every moment,” Ingvar tries to explain something that is incomprehensible for the common mind. “I came upon this space. When this information gets certain dimensions through someone, it forms knowledge.” 

In ancient scripts, this place, where all the information about the world is preserved, is called Akasha or the consciousness of God. “The overflow of the information became so wild that I understood that it would be impossible to receive it. I decided to identify with the source. Then it happened. I became one with it. Information ended. There was only complete silence. Now, when someone asks, I can answer them each moment straight from there. To their question precisely.” Describing enlightenment in such a simple way is probably only possible by someone for whom it’s not the first time to experience a state like that. 

In the computer language, it can be said that Ingvar works for us as a link to the database of the central computer. Channelers get information usually from intermediates, not from the central database. They are like radio transmitters who are communicating a wave which has been sent through their regulated frequency. Ingvar is capable of receiving information on any frequency at any moment. 

“When I look at the people who are channeling or intermediating any kind of higher things, there is one thing which is odd for me - that person is always inferior to those they supposedly get their knowledge or powers from – be it angels, spirits, or… I absolutely disagree that there is someone higher who gives to a person who is a subordinate or lower. Human, as I understand it in Kriya Yoga, is the highest. The next one from God, in the hierarchy of the creation, a human being is indeed the highest. 

Three unfulfilled wishes

Human as the highest being but not directing their own life, letting their tools direct their work of life - emotions and thoughts. Ingvar is holding two courses already for many years which are becoming more and more popular – “Releasing Emotions” and “Releasing Concepts”. “When I was teaching people the usage of the intellect – insight, intuition, inspiration, I saw that it was very difficult for people to attain these because there was always something inside them that was obstructing. When I was investigating the reason for their distress I understood that some obstacles are mental and others emotional, third ones are physical and the fourth obstacle is related to our jumping awareness (attention) which we can not control. Searching for ways to help them I introduced two techniques – releasing emotions and concepts. The purpose of these techniques is that people could cleanse their inner world in order to be able to remain as their real Self, aware for a longer period of time. The fact that the courses help people to fix their everyday situations and better their flow in life, is a “side effect” in Ingvar’s laughing words. 

“When we look at a modern person, we see that they are in trouble. They are not in trouble financially, most are distressed because they can’t find three things: the answer to the question who am I, control over their life and happiness. The lack of those three leaves people dissatisfied causes a need to compensate the gap with anything - money, things, relationships. In that sense, the whole world is in a crisis. This is the throbbing motor in our deep subconsciousness which makes us search for spiritual knowledge, the path to oneself.” 

In all of that crisis, it’s encouraging to know that quite close to us lives a pathfinder who has said about himself: “Use me since I’m already here.”